I don't want to screw up

Sometimes I feel like I’m the biggest idiot in the world. To get straight to the point: I think I’m pressuring her too much. I mean, I don’t know if she really likes having me around. I never stopped to ask her how she wants me to treat her. Am I being selfish? After thinking about that for the past few days, I feel really guilty. She’s everything that I’ve dreamed of but do I really deserve such a great thing? She deserves only the best, I will give her my best, but is my best good enough? Hmmm… even when I’m away from her, I always wonder, “What is she doing now?”, “How is she feeling now?”, “Has she eaten yet?”, “Does she need me now?”, I can’t help but think about her. I don’t know if she feels the same way but I need to give her time and space. I wouldn’t want to drive her away by pushing her. If I screw this up, hmmm… I’d be miserable. For what it’s worth, I’m so sorry…

Hannah Tan, make way for...

Remember my previous post on “My New Dream Gurl, Hannah Tan”? Hmmm… I guess Hannah Tan just lost her place in my heart. I’ve found a new dream gurl now. So sorry Hannah Tan! Haha! To my new dream gurl, I wrote you this:

I love the way you make me smile,
The way you whisper sweet words of bliss,
Which makes my day a dream come true.

I love the way you laugh with me,
The way you giggle, it makes me so warm and fuzzy,
Which makes me never want to part with you for life.

I love the way you comfort me,
The way you console and soothe my heart,
Which makes me fall even deeper in love.

I love the way you look at me,
The way you gaze with eyes looking right into me,
Which makes me feel like you want to know everything about me.

Best of all, I love the way you are who you are,
The way you are the best thing that could ever happen to me,
Which makes me ask what I did to deserve a miracle.

John Cena Lyrics

John Cena - Right Now Lyrics

[John Cena]
Yeah
You can't help but feel it
Can't help but feel this one
Uh-huh uh yeah

Excuse me for a minute while I lighten the mood
Just clap with me like the lightning do, yeah
A bit of soul food that you be bitin into
And if you feel me then I'm writin for you, uh-huh
Right now put another coat of wax on the ride
For a minute put the beef and the gats to the side
Cause this track's got a vibe to chill to
Enjoy life for 5 minutes, man it's not gon' kill you
It's okay to be hard and stay true man
But at the end of the day, we all hu-man
This one's for you, the ones that you close to
Show some love, it's what you supposed to
Right now, forget the ends and the Benz
Pop a cold one, man toast it wit'cha real friends
Call your folks, tell 'em you tight now
Cause everything lookin pretty good right now

[Chorus - sped up vocal sample]

[Tha Trademarc]
Right now baby, we all gon' ride
So place those things on your hips or side
The soul vibe gon' change, give way with fame
But sometimes the moral change or stay the same
Relax baby, right now you here
And sit back baby, with a round of beer
And cheer to those friends who crowded near
For those passed on in spirit they there
It's gon' be what it must, break bread wit'cha crew
If you got kids take the crust
It's all love baby, tell your girl she's strong
And whisper in her ear after dinner it's on
And take it slow baby, cause everything real
When you at family dinner y'all enjoy that meal
Thank God that you healthy and you keepin it tight
And keep your dreams lighthearted when you sleepin at night

[Chorus - sped up vocal sample]

[John Cena]
Yeah - and right now I'm showin love to my brothers and my old
man
To my girl, "Let's Get it On" like the slow jam
To everybody that I'm runnin down the road with
Y'all my family, I know that you know this
Fox, Rock, B's and Chaos
Y'all growin up with me man, true to life players
Grandma or grandpa watchin up above
Trademarc you my heart cousin, nothin but love

[Tha Trademarc]
Thanks momma, for all that you was
You a strongarm lady baby crazy with love
My sister raised me, those are the facts
And taught me how to rebuild when the order collapsed
And right now I'm blessed no stress no less
And thanks hip-hop for givin me back focus, huh
Yeah John, what can I say?
It's all love from day one, you showed me the way



John Cena - The Time Is Now Lyrics

[Chorus: John Cena]
Your time is up, my time is now
You can't see me, my time is now
It's the franchise, boy I'm shinin now
You can't see me, my time is now!

[John Cena]
In case you forgot or fell off I'm still hot - knock your shell
off
My money stack fat plus I can't turn the swell off
The franchise, doin big bid'ness, I live this
It's automatic I win this - oh you hear those horns, you
finished
A soldier, and I stay under you fightin
Plus I'm stormin on you chumps like I'm thunder and lightning
Ain't no way you breakin me kid, I'm harder than nails
Plus I keep it on lock, like I'm part of the jail
I'm slaughterin stale, competition, I got the whole block
wishin
they could run with my division but they gone fishin -
- with no bait, kid your boy hold weight
I got my soul straight, I brush your mouth like Colgate
In any weather I'm never better your boy's so hot
you'll never catch me in the next man's sweater
If they hate, let 'em hate, I drop ya whole clan
Lay yo' ass DOWN for the three second TAN

[Chorus]

[Tha Trademarc]
Yeah, uhh
It's gon' be what it's gon' be
Five pounds of courage buddy, bass tint pants with a gold T
Uhh - it's a war dance and victory step
A raw stance is a gift, when you insist it's my rep
John Cena, Trademarc, y'all are so-so
And talk about the bread you make but don't know the recipe for
dough though
Aimin guns in all your photos, that's a no-no
When this pop, you'll liplock, your big talk's a blatant
no-show
See what happens when the ice age melt
You see monetary status is not what matters, but it helps
I rock a timepiece by Benny if any
The same reason y'all could love me is the same reason y'all
condemn me
A man's measured by the way that he thinks
Not clothing lines, ice links, leather and minks
I spent 20 plus years seekin knowledge of self
So for now Marc Predka's livin live for wealth

[Chorus - repeat 2X]

What love feels like...

Being in love is like being in heaven. All the symptoms are there. Lack of appetite, lack of sleep, day dreaming… the list goes on. When you love someone you’ll all the crazy things that you can’t explain. You’ll risk it all, no matter what may come. You’ll sacrifice, give it all you’ve got and you won’t think twice. You won’t care about what others think, because you follow what your heart says. Although the future isn’t that clear from where you’re standing, you’d do anything to make it happen, because you feel that she’s worth every single sacrifice that you make. Although you’ve only just got to know her and there’s a lot more to learn about her, you feel like you want to keep knowing her and want to spend time with her, just watching her and learning from her. She’s all you’ve ever wanted in a girl and you just want to have and to hold her as long and as hard as you can, never letting go no matter what happens. If she’s the one, and you’re sure about it, you’ve got to tell her. Don’t tell the best thing that could ever happen to your life just slip away…

I don’t care who you are, where you’re from, what you did…

Don’t seek the differences in people, seek their similarities. That’s my philosophy in life. I really hate discrimination. Racial, religious and cultural differences don’t influence my decisions regarding who like or dislike. Everyone is human, nothing else matters. Wars, crimes and violence often erupt from our difference. We should learn to overlook it. We shouldn’t discriminate people just because he or she is difference from us. Sometimes, even our parents restrict us from befriending people of other beliefs or customs just because our parents are afraid that we will follow their footsteps and forget our roots. I believe that youngsters today have their own perspective on life. They don’t look at skin colour, race and beliefs when they make friends or find love. They’re able to make their own choices in life and learn to live with its consequences. So, parents should learn from their youngsters when it comes to overlooking people’s differences. Don’t you think that the world would be a much better place if everyone roamed the earth freely without having to show passport, no borders in between countries and there’s a mixture of different people in every country. Wouldn’t it bring prosperity and tranquillity? Think about it… its time for the grown-ups to be grown-ups… one colour, one people, one world…

Meaningful Songs...

I really love the lyrics to these songs. They're so meaningful…


Bryan Adams – When You Love Someone

When you love someone - you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth - believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you need someone...

When you love someone - you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice
You'd risk it all - no matter what my come
When you love someoneYou'll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone


Cheryl Crow – I Shall Believe

Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it's a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe
I'm broken in two
And I know you're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key
Never again would I turn away from you I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time
I try to make it right It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe


Cheryl Crow – The First Cut Is The Deepest

I would have given you all of my heart but there's someone who's torn it apart
And she's taking almost all that
I've got but if you want,
I'll try to love again baby
I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest 'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me she's worst but when it comes to being loved she's first that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side just to help me dry the tears that
I've cried cause I'm sure gonna give you a try and if you want,
I'll try to love again but baby,
I'll try to love again, but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed when it comes to lovin' me he's worst but when it comes to being loved she's first that's how
I know The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

Eric Cantona... The King, The Legend, The Idol...

The man was the most brilliant and influential player of his time. No other player could match his flair and character on and off the field. Opponents feared him, teammates idolised him, and fans worshiped him. Eric Cantona wasn’t just another player; he was the God of Football in England. For me, he’s the undisputed player of the century. If you’ve seen him play, you would defiantly agree with me.


Name: Eric Cantona
Height: 1.88m (6'2")
Weight: 88kg
Born: Marseille, France
Date Of Birth: May 24, 1966

Clubs:

• AJ Auxerre
• FC Martigues
• Olympique Marseille
• Bordeaux
• Montpellier
• Olympique Nîmes
• Leeds United
• Manchester United

International Debut:
12th August 1987 versus West Germany

International Caps/Goals:
43 Caps/20 Goals

Signed for Manchester United: 27th November 1992.

First Appearance for Manchester United: Versus Benfica in Lisbon, 1st December 1992, a testimonial match for Eusebio.

League Debut for Manchester United: As substitute versus Manchester City, 6th December 1992; United won 2-1.

Appearances Vs. Goal Scored for Manchester United:
App: 182 Goals: 80

Honours:

• European Under-21 Championship for France (1988)
• French Cup for Montpellier (1990)
• French League for Marseille (1991)
• English Division One for Leeds (1992)
• Premier League for Manchester United (1993, 1994, 1996, 1997)
• FA Cup for Manchester United (1994, 1996)
• PFA Player of the Year (1994)
• Footballer of the Year (1996)
  

Career Highlights:

• 1983: Makes professional debut for Auxerre
• 1985: Loaned to Martigues after making just 13 appearances and scoring two goals in three seasons for Auxerre.
• 1986: Returned to Auxerre and over the next two seasons made 68 appearances and scored 21 goals.
• 1987: Receives heavy fine for punching his team's goalkeeper, giving him a black eye. Makes his debut for France against West Germany.
• 1988: Joins Marseille in French record £2million deal. Banned from French team for one year after swearing at national coach Henri Michel .
• 1989: Suspended indefinitely by Marseille after kicking the ball into the crowd and throwing his shirt at a referee after being substituted. Joins Bordeaux on loan, then moves to Montpellier for £300,000.
• 1990: Banned by Montpellier for 10 days after smashing his boots into the face of team-mate Jean Claude Lemoult. Returns to Marseille.
• 1991: Signs for Nimes but is banned for three games after throwing the ball at a referee. At the disciplinary hearing, he walks up to each committee member and says: "Idiot". His ban is increased to two months, so Cantona responds by announcing his retirement from soccer.
• 1992: Comes out of retirement for a trial with Sheffield Wednesday, but walks out after being asked to remain for a further week and joins Leeds for £900,000. Helps the Elland Road side win the League title before moving to Manchester United in £1.2million deal.
• 1993: Fined £1,000 by the FA for spitting at a Leeds fan in his first game back at Elland Road with Manchester United, whom he then helps to the Premiership title. Sent off in United's European Cup defeat by Galatasaray in Istanbul, Turkey, for accusing the referee of cheating, scuffles with Turkish police and is banned by UEFA for four European games.
• 1994: Scores two goals in the 4-0 FA Cup final over Chelsea as United complete the League and Cup double. Voted PFA Player of the Year.
• 1995: Sent off at Crystal Palace on January 25 after a Kung-Fu kick at fan Matthew Simmons. His actions lead to him being banned from all football until September 30 and fined £10,000 by the FA. A two-week prison sentence for the offence is varied on appeal to 120 hours of community service. Returns to action on October 1 and scores a penalty in a 2-2 draw against Liverpool.
• 1996: Voted Footballer of the Year by the Football Writers Association and scores winning goal in FA Cup final against Liverpool as United complete the double for the second time in three seasons.
• 1997: Member of a championship-winning side for the fifth time in six seasons but a week after the Premiership finale, announces his retirement from professional soccer at the age of 30.