Lesson to learn...

Expectancy is the key to disappointment. I mean, the more you expect something, the more likely it is for you to be left empty handed and bitter. People always expect things to be done for them but people who can’t say ‘no’ to them, your boss, your family, your loved one. That cycle should be broken and people should be allowed to say ‘no’, regardless of the reason, because what is the point of living if we don’t have choices in our lives. We should dictate how we live, not other people. We should be who we actually are, and not someone who other people like because we always please them. We’re not made to be pretenders. Boundaries should be clearly defined to keep us from falling into the slavery of always pleasing others before ourselves. Learning how to say ‘yes’ is always easy, learning how to say ‘no’ will be difficult because others won’t let us say it. So, that’s what I’m learning now.

I've found my way...

Falling in love is a lot easier than falling out of it. The memories last forever. Even if you try to move on, there’s always something that holds you back. You can never forget someone who has made a change in your life. No matter who you will be with in the future, the person that you let go made you the person that you are in the future. I have done my best to let go, I finally did, but somehow she still lingers in my heart. It hurts to let go, I can’t deny that, but it hurts even more to hope that someday we will be together. Which one is worse? I can’t choose. It hurts all the same. It has drained me mentally, emotionally and physically. I couldn’t hold on to this insanity any longer, I’m losing my grip, but now, I’ve bounced back, I’ve reclaimed my soul and my identity. I feel that the burden has been lifted. Now I can focus on myself for once. So, basically I’m back to my old self.